April 3, 2022
Some changes look negative on the surface but you will soon realize that space is being created in your life for something new to emerge. ― Eckhart Tolle
There is something wonderful about moving through each day with moderate routine. For me, I experience feelings of comfort and security when I know what to expect without surprise. But that, dear hearts, is not the path of life. The universe is always in motion and fluctuating; it is filled with impermanence. The very nature of our 4 seasons demonstrates this beautifully. Even now, we can look around us and see remarkable change ― life emerging. The budding of trees, the appearance of spring flowers, and the song of birds. We are in a constant flow of energy and change.
And with that change comes the opportunity for truthful reevaluation; the very thing that I have been earnestly delving into since the beginning of 2022. For the last 3 years, I’ve been ALL IN, working an average of 70 hours a week. And although I deeply enjoy all that I am privileged to do as a practitioner, it has come with a high cost. For quite some time I have had to manage moderate arthritis in my hands, hips, and back, but over the last 6 months, my body has begun to show escalating wear and tear. There are frequent moments when I have to make choices knowing that at some point during the day I will not have the physical strength or ability to finish what is before me. As someone who is deeply passionate about being of service to others, I find this both heartbreaking and distressing at the same time.
It is no secret that many of the instruments that I work with (and the gear that goes along with them) are extremely heavy and physically demanding. I frequently have to carry load upon load up and down many flights of stairs, regularly packing, unpacking, loading, and unloading. It’s no wonder why my body is waving the white flag and telling me this is no longer sustainable for my overall physical health. I have truly reached the point where change is necessary and there is a certain amount of sadness and grief that comes with that realization. Grief over the loss of what I deeply enjoy doing... grief over the thought of letting others down. It’s a lot to emotionally unpack and process.
And yet, here I am, laboring to find what I like to refer to as the "middle ground" ― a place of balance to support this essential change. I've poured all of my thoughts and efforts into finding the right path and for now, it appears that easing out of my community work and focusing entirely on private client care is what is best for my overall health. There is so much that I want to say about this... but I earnestly struggle to find words that fully express the depth of regret that is in my heart. Please know that I have absolutely loved each and every public and private group offering I have been blessed to facilitate over the last several years. My entire soul is filled with unending gratitude for being able to support and nourish our community in this way. I will dearly miss seeing so many of you each month and I hope you will consider allowing me the privilege of working with you privately to further support your well-being.
Right now, I see clients M-Th each week and offer a wide range of integrative modalities of self-care including Singing Bowl Therapy, Gong Therapy, Monochord Therapy, Tuning Fork Therapy, Sound Bath Meditation, Breathwork, Vipassana Meditation, Usui Reiki, and more. It would be an unbelievable honor to welcome you into my home studio and to continue to hold space for you for softening, presence, and relaxation. I invite you to read more about my private client services by visiting the services tab on this website and I am happy to answer any questions you might have. I know this may be surprisingly unexpected news and I wholeheartedly appreciate your continued support, understanding, and of course love as I endeavor to embrace change.